02.25.08

When I Grow Up, Part 2

Posted in Education, The Floppy Hat™ at 9:07 pm by eliana

I missed journaling last week, but Calvin has decided to be gracious and let me off the hook this first time, as long as I journal twice this week. If I forget one, however, my sentence is four cups of coffee instead of just two. I’d better get going!

In my last post I reviewed how I arrived at where I am now. Now, I’ll take some time to explore my initial thoughts about the things I love most.

First and foremost on my list of loves is Hebrew: I’ve been studying Hebrew for 5 years now, if you include the time that I was out of school not actively “studying” but still working with the language through teaching and personal use. I first learned Hebrew using Biblical Hebrew: A Text and Workbook (1st Edition) by Bonnie Pedrotti Kittel and others. We affectionately called the textbook “Bonnie” in my undergrad, a habit I still have today. The difference between this book and learning Hebrew from a “grammar,” is that “Bonnie” is inductive. Lesson one after we learned the aleph-bet started with the ubiquitous ויאמר יהוה (and Adonai said). In other words, a phrase straight from the Biblical text, rather than made up sentences until we “learned enough.” My professor was insistent on keeping our translations rough, especially in the first year of Hebrew. He would say, “We aren’t learning to translate, we’re learning to read Hebrew.” Personally, I feel I have a much better grasp on why Hebrew works the way it does and says things in the way it says them now, than if I had just learned, “When you see this phrase, it’s best translated into this English wording.” No, instead, I can read the Hebrew phrase and not have to put it into smooth English in order to understand it.

Though certain language professors here might have a heart attack if they knew, I did learn diagnostics rather than endless lists of paradigms, and scored A’s all throughout Hebrew at Davis and here at GCTS too, despite that fact. No, I can’t reproduce for you the Niphal 3rd heh imperfect paradigm, but I could recognize such a verb if I saw one, and meaning no disrespect to anyone, I daresay that’s better than most of these professors graduated MDiv students in the pastorate can do now. I am of course, not meaning to toot my own horn, just lamenting the eventual erosion of knowledge because people simply don’t learn to love it, and thus keep up on it. Obviously people do learn to love it the “standard way,” but I think there’s room for some lovin’ from the less academically inclined as well.

That’s really my whole point in this contemplation-turned-rant about Hebrew, I suppose. I have learned to think of Hebrew as a much-loved friend, an art form, not a mechanical scientific method. Of course, one can’t get away without memorization - there’s always vocab, and there are some things (like the verb endings) that you just have to know. I realize that somewhere down the line, since I’m going to study the language more professionally, I may really need to know what the vowel under R2 is, so that I can claim complete mastery over the language. But for the majority of pastors and laypeople, this is more than enough! And I daresay that if we taught Hebrew this way, more pastors would remember what they learn in seminary (and perhaps even enjoy it!) and maybe teaching laypeople Biblical languages wouldn’t seem like such a crazy idea.

Calvin recently alerted me to another style of teaching the language that I would love to experiment with. It’s a completely inductive method that utilizes now common theories on modern language study - in other words, learn to speak the language as if you were a child, and so become fluent in it. Most interestingly, they claim that this way, your reading proficiency in the Biblical languages will increase dramatically. Note that I said reading proficiency, not the ability to translate. Meaning, I could really take my Hebrew Bible to church and follow along, reading it fluently as if I was a “native,” thinking in the language. What a thrill that would be! Even after 5 years I still can’t do that. We hope to pick up the at-home materials this summer to take a look.

I suppose a theme is emerging from all this rambling about Hebrew. 1) I love Hebrew 2) I love Hebrew partially because of the way I’ve been taught 3) I want to pass on my knowledge of Hebrew to other people in a way that they too will learn to love it 4) I think inductive study is the best way to do it, especially for pastors or laypeople.

So what does this have to do with what I’m going to do with my life? Well, for one, whatever it is, it has to involve Hebrew. For two, I am determined to spread the influence of Hebrew (and Greek, though I don’t know it yet) beyond the realm of scholars into the lives of everyday Christians, who really can learn it, despite what they may insist. Why, though? It’s certainly not for the sake of knowledge. No, it’s because it so greatly enhances our ability to understand the Hebrew Bible. One would laugh if you met someone who called themselves a scholar of some ancient civilization or text, and they didn’t know the original languages that civilization spoke and wrote in! Laypeople aren’t scholars, but there’s no reason they can’t know the original languages of something evangelicals claim is the foundation of their faith!

I don’t know if this got me any further on deciding a dissertation topic or what school I want to go to, but I’m sure somewhere down the line this side path will come in handy. I didn’t mean to talk quite this much about Hebrew, so I guess I’ll have to save my next love, where Hebrew naturally leads, the Hebrew Bible, for next time.

02.16.08

When I Grow Up, Part 1

Posted in Education, The Floppy Hat™ at 12:19 am by eliana

This is the start of a series of posts I’m going to be writing, one each week. When I met with Dr. Rosell last semester to discuss PhD work, he encouraged me to spend an hour every week journaling about the direction that I want to go in academically so that I can narrow down my field early, and thus get a jump start on my future PhD work by reading the right books, making the right contacts, attending the right seminars, and just generally learning more about what I want to spend the rest of my life studying, and teaching. I decided that rather than keep my thoughts in a private journal, I would post them as part of my blog for all to comment on, should they so wish.

That being said, these may not be the most coherent, logical, or profound posts, but Dr. Rosell is of course right: getting my thoughts down on paper (even virtually) can only help me. I will be writing about specific areas that interest me academically, possible PhD programs and advisers, what I might want to write a dissertation on - and, anything else that happens to float to the top of my brain.

Of course, additionally, Calvin has threatened me with forced coffee drinking if I forget to journal. He does keep my scatterbrained tendencies in line. :-)

I have entitled the series “When I Grow Up” because, well, sometimes I still don’t feel like I’ve really “grown up” into my career yet. The more adult version of the question “What are you going to be when you grow up?” is, “What do you plan to do with your education?” but it’s the same idea, and I get it all the time. Well, what do I plan to do with it?

Why don’t I start simple: re-evaluating where I am, how I got here, and my current vague impressions of where I want to go. To begin with the broadest view possible, I set before myself the whole spectrum of possibilities. I obviously chose to forgo career options like interior decoration, psychology, and music, all of which were serious possibilities in my adolescence, by choosing to go to Davis College, a small Bible college in Upstate New York. In all honesty, I’m not even sure myself how I ended up at a Bible college at last, other than a vague impression of a call to work with “youth” and the shock of learning that one could actually go to college to study the Bible. What more could one want?

So, with that goal in mind, I began 7 years ago an educational journey that hasn’t stopped yet, and probably won’t for quite some time. It still amazes me, at times, how I ended up even from there where I am now. Due to the influence of a fantastic professor, I grew to appreciate the Old Testament early on in my undergraduate career, but even at the end of my Sophomore year when I was fully convinced of the tragedy that was the loss of the teaching of first two-thirds of the Bible in churches, I had no inclinations to make a career out of it. One almost flippant decision to take Hebrew radically altered my path. You may think I sound overly dramatic - and perhaps so - but had I never taken Hebrew, and perhaps just as important, learned it in the way I did, I can guarantee you that I would not be studying for an M.A., let alone in Old Testament, right now.

For some reason beyond my comprehension, I immediately fell in love with Hebrew. I soaked it in like a cat basking in a spot of sunshine, and went on to take four semesters worth. I knew by the end of my Senior year that I had to have more. As my knowledge of Hebrew grew, I began to become more and more enamored with the Hebrew Bible and its theological and cultural mysteries. I developed a fascination for the way ANE myth is used in the Hebrew Bible, and how the pervading culture of the day influenced it. For the first time in my entire life, I considered, then confirmed, that I would go on for more work at the grad level in the Bible. I toyed briefly with going for an M.A. in Theology, but abandoned that idea for an M.A. in Old Testament when Calvin and I decided on Gordon-Conwell.

One other major change occurred while I was attending Davis: for a reason I can’t pinpoint, my heart became broken for the church. While my theology, certainly by no desire of the college as a whole, was pulled slowly outside of the box that I had known all my life, my passion to see laypeople educated in the Bible and being true disciples of Christ became an ever-present issue for me. I saw the damage Christianity has taken because of outspoken people who stand as representatives for the faith. I saw Christianity taking political sides, and warring over issues such as Intelligent Design while the poor, the blind, and the lame weren’t given a second thought.

Two years out of school and working full-time in a pleasant and mostly enjoyable job left me nevertheless unsatisfied and chomping at the bit to move on. Shortly before and quite a bit through this time, I also taught Hebrew, volunteer, to some youth from our church, and enjoyed the experience immensely. During this time, I pondered carefully what school I would attend, what I would do afterwards, and how that combined with my increasing dismay at the state of evangelicalism and the western church. In the matter of the church, I experienced first-hand the nastiness that can come out of those who claim to follow Christ.

And so, here I am now at Gordon-Conwell, in the MAOT program. A semester of classes has made me realize just how fortunate I am to have learned Hebrew the way I did: while before I couldn’t imagine why anyone could not like Hebrew, I now understand the struggle of learning languages the old-fashioned way, and am quite sure I would be agreeing with the rest of them now had my education been done differently. This, however, far from driving me away from Hebrew, has strengthened my resolve that languages can be taught differently, and if only they were, so many more might learn to love and retain what they learn. I also took Akkadian last semester, and History and Archaeology of the Ancient Near East. The latter convinced me that I don’t want to be an archaeologist, the former made me pause at the thought of studying more of Akkadian at the doctoral level.

I groan now as I am learning how incredibly conservative this school’s Bible department is in taking Theology of the Pentateuch this semester, and am baffled at who ever thought of teaching Aramaic in such a profoundly ignorant way. My one refuge this semester is my Biblical Global Justice class, which is astonishingly exciting and pedagogically refreshing.

So here I am now, pondering constantly where I am going to go from here. One school after another has been carefully probed, their faculty examined, all the while I turn over what I really want to do. Obviously, teaching is the broad category of career. But what should I study more specifically? Hebrew and cognates? Hebrew Bible? ANE History? Now that I myself am refreshed as to what brought me to this place, perhaps I can better consider what I want to focus on - more spiritually speaking, where God would lead me.

Of course, those who know me well know that really this whole thing started when I saw and decided I had to have…

The Floppy Hat™.

02.06.08

Ash Wednesday

Posted in Church, Personal at 5:35 pm by eliana

Today begins the season of Lent, something which, before last year, I hardly gave thought to. This morning, Calvin and I attended an Ash Wednesday service at Christ Church. This was my (and Calvin’s) first time attending an Ash Wednesday service, but we thought it appropriate since we both are taking part in Lent this year (again, for the first time ever). We’re sticking with semi-traditional for our first time around, and abstaining from meat. Now I’m a carnivore through and through, I don’t like seafood, and there aren’t many vegetables that I would call my friends, so this is going to be an interesting 40 days.

I’m looking forward to celebrating Easter this year as the culmination of the period of Lent, rather than just an extra special Sunday - and along with Christians the world around.

02.02.08

iTunes Game

Posted in The Silly Zone at 6:45 pm by eliana

I stole this from Dawn, someone I don’t know but for some reason I randomly read her blog…I thought it was kinda funny. For some reason I got a lot of the same artists in my shuffle…I do have a few others, promise!

Just hit shuffle on your iPod or iTunes and plug in the songs as the answers. No cheating!

If someone says, “Is this okay?” what do you say?
While You Were Sleeping, Casting Crowns (that sounds a little sarcastic!)

How would you describe yourself?
Whispers, Skillet (well I am a quiet kind of person)

What do you like in a guy or girl?
Comatose, Skillet (funny, but no)

How do you feel today?
Complicated, Avril Lavinge (true some days, but not today)

What is your life’s purpose?
Besaid, Nobuo Uematsu (er…I like Final Fantasy X but not THAT much!)

What is your motto?
Meant to Be, Jim Brickman (that’s interesting)

What do your friends think about you?
Aerith’s Theme, Nobuo Uematsu (I’m not sure what that means)

What do your parents think of you?
See the Glory, Steven Curtis Chapman (hmmmm…well I know they’re proud of me but I don’t know if they think I’m glorious…or maybe it’s because I’m going to seminary?)

What do you think about very often?
Adrianne, Day of Fire (I don’t know who that is, and I can’t even remember what the song is about, so er, no)

What is 2 + 2?
A Storm is Coming, Howard Shore (I always knew math was evil)

What do you think of your ex?
Suteki Da Ne, Nobuo Uematsu (meaning, isn’t it wonderful. That’d be cute except I don’t have an ex)

What do you think of the person you like?
End of the World, Kingdom Hearts Soundtrack (well, if this means I’d follow him till the end of the world, then sure)

What is your life story?

Destiny, Jim Brickman (curious…)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
No Longer, Decyfer Down (I swear, I’m not suicidal)

What do you think when you see the person you like?
The Black Gate Opens, Howard Shore (wow…um…okay…)

What will they play at your funeral?
And Now My Lifesong Sings, Casting Crowns (maybe!)

What is your hobby/interest?
Ending Theme, Nobuo Uematsu (if that means playing video games, then sure…otherwise…???)

What is your biggest fear?
Just an Itty Bitty Too Much, Kingdom Hearts Soundtrack (umm….?)

What is your biggest secret?
Hush Lil’ Baby, Jim Brickman (guess I’m not telling)

What do you think of your friends?
On Our Way, Nobuo Uematsu (okay, sure…considering I’m still making them)

This wasn’t a tag, but I’m tagging Calvin anyways. ;-)

02.01.08

Page 123

Posted in Books, The Silly Zone at 10:20 pm by eliana

Jim tagged me for an interesting little game…

* Pick up the nearest book of 123 pages or more (no cheating!)
* Find page 123
* Find the first five sentences
* Post the next three sentences
* Tag five people

The nearest book to me is my Oblivion Strategy Guide, if that counts. Okay, so page 123 is a map with descriptions of the various numbered points. The next three sentences after the first five are…

“(It has a Magicka fountain and a torture cage.) And the two northern ones have exits onto broken northbound bridges. 4. Daedric siege crawler: If it gets out the Great Gate before you can destroy the gate, kiss Bruma goodbye.”

Okay, so that was interesting. I’m tagging Florrie, Diana, Jess, none of whom will probably do this, and I don’t know who else to tag…