08.25.08
Tour de Japon - At Zanarkand
“At Zanarkand” is one of my favorite musical pieces from a video game - it has been since I heard it for the first time upon starting up Final Fantasy X, in fact. The piano version (both from the game and the arrangement from the piano collections CD) is beautiful, but recently I found a version performed by orchestra on YouTube - and it is absolutely stunning. In a number of places the strings add a gorgeous, bittersweet note to the piece that sends chills down my spine.
This orchestra also did a number of other pieces from Final Fantasy that are quite good, but this one is by far my favorite. If you’re interested in the others, just search for “Tour de Japon” on YouTube.
Anyways, if you’re at all interested, have a listen:
03.24.08
Reasons
I think I figured out why I’m a little nervous about this scholarship thing. It’s because of my reasons for wanting to “be a scholar.” I want to be a scholar so that I can take what my field is doing and make it useful for laypeople. No, more than just useful - I want it to make a difference to the way they interpret the Bible, and thus to their beliefs, faith, and ultimately their lives.
Maybe that seems like a high and lofty goal, and I know I’m only one person, but I want to be one small bridge between the ivory towers and everyone else. I don’t have to be well known, or known at all, but if a well known scholar was to read something I wrote, or hear me speak, I’d want to know that I could be considered respectable, i.e. a “real scholar.” Right now, I see that the layperson has very few people to look to whom they can trust for good scholarship. The result is a lot of popular theological rubbish that most scholars scoff at - but the layperson never even knows there’s another way of looking at it, because the same scholars that scoff really aren’t interested in enlightening anyone - most certainly not Christians!
This all stems from my faith - I care about laypeople because I care about the Church. I guess I feel like that makes me a bit of a weirdo in the scholarly world. But, as Calvin reminded me, for every person who writes books and articles and yaks about this or that, there are who knows how many who are just out there teaching, maybe writing an article here or there, but they just care about the students. I go a little further than that - I care about the students, but I also care about the people they will affect with what they learn. (At a Bible college, I could be teaching future pastors, for instance.) So maybe I’m not as much of a weirdo as I think; there are most certainly others with similar passions out there. I guess I just feel a lot of pressure to “perform” correctly.
03.14.08
Book Quiz
Okay, so another one of those quizzes is circulating…this is kinda scarily right if you apply it to my conflict between my conservative upbringing and where I am now…

You’re The Giver!
by Lois Lowry
While you grew up with a sheltered childhood, you’re pretty sure everyone around you is even more sheltered. Suddenly, from out of nowhere, you were tapped on the shoulder and transported to the real world. This made you horrified by your prior upbringing and now you’re tormented by how to reconcile these two lives. Ultimately, the struggle comes down to that old free will issue. Choose wisely.
Take the Book Quiz at the Blue Pyramid.
03.13.08
Meyers-Briggs
I love taking personality tests. It’s even better when they’re “official.” I’ve taken the Meyers-Briggs type indicator test 4 times in my life now. Once when I was in elementary school, once in high school, once in college, and I just took it again now. What’s interesting is that I was an INFP the first three times I took it, but I’ve now changed a letter! I now score an INFJ - from Perceiving to Judging. I think the basic difference is that Judging is more organized and scheduled vs. spontaneous. Maybe it’s a result of my having been through college and now in grad school, and needing to be organized to survive. But, INFP still sounds like me in a lot of ways as well, so I have no doubt that give it a couple years and I’ll flip back.
I’ll spare you detailing the INFJ personality type, as there are plenty of sites you could look it up on if you really wanted to.
02.06.08
Ash Wednesday
Today begins the season of Lent, something which, before last year, I hardly gave thought to. This morning, Calvin and I attended an Ash Wednesday service at Christ Church. This was my (and Calvin’s) first time attending an Ash Wednesday service, but we thought it appropriate since we both are taking part in Lent this year (again, for the first time ever). We’re sticking with semi-traditional for our first time around, and abstaining from meat. Now I’m a carnivore through and through, I don’t like seafood, and there aren’t many vegetables that I would call my friends, so this is going to be an interesting 40 days.
I’m looking forward to celebrating Easter this year as the culmination of the period of Lent, rather than just an extra special Sunday - and along with Christians the world around.
11.11.07
Church, Chicken and Hebrew
Today was a busy day. Calvin and I started out the morning with a meeting for Got Style at church. (An ABC evangelism training program.) It was interesting to see where our church stands as a whole in their evangelistic styles. My primary (most comfortable) “evangelistic style” is Analytical - no surprises there - followed by Relationship and Incarnational (servant evangelism) as areas I am somewhat comfortable in. Personally, while I scored high in the intellectual arena, I think that works more in harmony with relationship-building. I’m not a huge “talker” until I know someone.
After we got home at around 1:00, we translated 2 Samuel 11 and 24 until dinner. I must say, the narrator in 2 Samuel 11 (as in much of the Samuel corpus) is a literary genius. Unfortunately, you just don’t catch much of the interwoven suspense/surprise elements of the David and Bathsheba story in the English. I love translating Hebrew narrative - the (almost) sacrifice of Isaac was another fantastic read when I translated that some years ago. Chalk one more point up to learning original languages! Anyways, I’m happy to say that we’ve now completed all of our translation work for Exegesis of 1 & 2 Samuel for the semester.
The special Saturday dinner for tonight was “Italian Chicken,” in the crock pot. We put a whole chicken in the crock pot with some chopped up potatoes, and an entire bottle of Italian dressing. It had been cooking since 8:00am on low when we unleashed it. It turned out very well - extremely tender (fall-off-the-bone) and juicy. The potatoes weren’t bad either. We paired the dish with some of those canned crescent rolls and a bottle of Tuxedo White, which was decent, but not as good as I remembered. It’s possible that the food pairing wasn’t quite right, but we’re still learning.
After dinner, it was back to Hebrew: we finished Micah 6:13-7:10 for Hebrew. Tomorrow we hope to finish the book and be done with translation work for Intermediate Hebrew. Progress! Micah has been both frustrating and rewarding to translate. At times, it can be difficult to put the Hebrew into readable English if I even understand what it’s saying myself. That’s when the text isn’t corrupted by some textual error. However, there are some great passages that just really flowed - the beauty of Hebrew poetry never ceases to amaze me. Once again, so much you just don’t pick up in the English - so much you just can’t transfer since they are poetic devices for the Hebrew language.
I am reminded constantly how much I love Hebrew. I have battled through Akkadian all through this semester. Somehow I manage A’s and B’s on my quizzes, but I have a sinking feeling that at the insane rate we’ve had to learn it, it will seep out of my mind within a few months. If nothing else, it has reinforced to me where my real love lies.
So, today, it’s been church, chicken, and Hebrew - and a little Stargate thrown in at the end. ![]()
11.01.07
Hermiod the Ladybug
On Tuesday I temporarily acquired a pet ladybug. When I saw one climbing up the filing cabinet next to my desk, I promptly turned a small, clear, plastic storage device into a ladybug home complete with air holes, and captured it.
My new ladybug friend lived on the top of my filing cabinet for a day and a half before I released him back into the wild (if the bushes outside our apartment by the parking lot can be called the wild). In that time, I made several observations:
1) As soon as I captured him, he immediately made a small mess inside the container. I initially thought it was, ah, ladybug excrement, but after some research online I discovered that when scared or threatened, ladybugs release a small amount of smelly liquid from their legs to deter predators. After finding that out, I felt rather sorry for my poor, frightened ladybug.
2) Ladybugs appear to “wash” their faces and even shells with their legs. I say this only because as I was observing the ladybug at several points, I noticed that he was moving his front legs in a manner that looked like a cat giving itself a bath. He also rubbed his back legs together. Now, I didn’t research this particular activity, so for all I know he was itching himself or making some ladybug noise outside of my range of hearing. Nevertheless, it was a rather endearing activity.
3) At one point, the ladybug attempted to squeeze itself out of one of the air holes I made. Since I’m a smart person, I didn’t make the air holes large enough for the ladybug to fit through. That didn’t stop him from trying however, and he managed his tiny head and two front legs before giving up and retreating back into his temporary prison.
4) On advice from a website on keeping ladybugs as temporary pets, I dribbled some water down one of the air holes so my friend had something to drink. 10 minutes later, I found him at the side of the little pool. Drinking, perhaps? The water was all gone within hours, whether to the ladybugs stomach or evaporation, I guess I’ll never know.
5) I read that ladybugs play dead when they are threatened, and once I came in to the room to find him indeed looking quite dead: unmoving even at a tap on the container, and his legs carefully hidden under his shell like a turtle so that he rested flush on the ground. Not fooled, I turned the container upside down, and instantaneously two little legs shot out from under the shell to grasp hold tighter. He, however, remained firmly attached to what was now his ceiling. Dead? I don’t think so.
Upon completion of my ladybug observation, I bequeathed the name Hermiod (after an Asgard from Stargate: Atlantis) on the tiny creature, and put him back outside with a sad farewell. Never had I realized how many details the life of such a small, insignificant creature could offer if one could only be prevailed upon to take the time to stop and watch for a day, or two.
Goodbye, my ladybug friend. May the rest of your days be free from predators and full of aphids to eat!
10.21.07
Despair
I got online tonight and found that I had 81 unread posts on my Google reader. I’ve never had above 30 unread before at any given time.
I haven’t called my parents in over 2 weeks. I love talking to them but a typical phone call takes 2 hours of time that I haven’t been able to find all in a row when all of us would be at home.
I had a dream that I got a 59 on my History & Archaeology of the ANE mid-term. I don’t know where my mind pulled that number from, but it was a rather lengthy dream involving me bursting into tears and begging the prof for a second chance. I still don’t have the real grade back yet.
I live with a constant feeling of strain, and swing between highs of confidence and lows of despair, more frequently the latter, especially when I consider the 2 papers and 1 major project I cannot seem to find the time to fit into my weekly school work routine that I am barely keeping up with already.
I spend at least 1 hour a week in tears, and have considered more than once giving up on the Ph.D. idea.
When I take an hour to watch Stargate with my husband and relax, I can’t relax because I feel guilty for taking time to have fun instead of studying.
I cut my work hours back to 18 from 20/wk. I am tired all the time. I can’t enjoy what I’m learning because I’m so stressed about getting the schoolwork done. I am frustrated over the youth ministry at church.
I just want this semester to end.
10.16.07
My Reading Habits
Why do these things never display properly on my blog??
| What Kind of Reader Are You?
Your Result: Dedicated Reader
You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more. |
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| Literate Good Citizen |
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| Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm |
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| Book Snob |
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| Fad Reader |
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| Non-Reader |
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Thanks to my hubby.






